Saturday, March 1
Still can't seem to accept the fact that I am a 14 pointer, no matter how hard the facts are. And just because I am a 14 pointer, I am pressurised by everyone. Because my results are so unstable, I can't decide whether can I really stay in AJ. And because its a 14 pts, I feel very outcast, very useless, very inferior. I know people say I am actually good, but it's just that my humanities pulled me down. I know all these, but you gotta accept the cold hard facts. I am a 14 pointer. What so good about double A1s for maths and double A2s for Phy and Chem when you get 14 pts??
What's worse is that whenever I think about my C5 for humanities, I get the feeling that I actually flunked my humanities so badly that after moderation I still get a C5. What is this? I must have gotten such a terrible grade, like F9 or G10(If there is such a grade), to remain as a C5. Sad truth ya? I know I am no good, but I can't believe it lor, I have been consistently passing my humanities, there is no reason why I would fail. Why? Is my humanities really that bad until it can't be further moderated? Is it? I know I shouldn't harp on it, but can you feel the piercing and the humiliation of the grade? I can't bear it.
Am I really that useless?
Posted by Isabelle at 11:41 pm